•rachel•

-wrote these when i was crazy depressed lol- , I'm afraid I'm becoming too distant. I'm not the only person in your life, but you're the only one in mine.  You shine like the North Star but I.  am a black hole that collects every negative feeling,  every frightened burst of energy, every tear falling, every sad dream It's dark.  where I am and I can't find you even though you're screaming at me that you're right in front of me just one step further you can make it but I fall.  I fall anyway,  I fall into a pit below me and I stay there.  And instead of climbing up the wall I grab a shovel and dig myself deeper where else is there to go?  I am not strong enough to force my way up. I am not wise enough to fabricate a plan of escape.  Your light grows smaller as I keep digging until suddenly I can not see you anymore.  And you cry for me, but only for a while because life will go on anyway,  A few million years left be

2016 has finally ended ( finally ) and now it's time for a fresh start. I've been looking at old photos and trying to remember all of the good stuff that has happened in the pile of garbage that was the past year. I posted a whole sappy caption on my personal Instagram ( x ) and then I started thinking... What are my plans for this year? I haven't thought about it at all; I didn't even think 2016 was ever going to be over. However, I think I have some goals. First I want to look at my 2016 Best Nine from my nail Instagram ( x ) Apparently I only posted 19 photos this year yikes. Sorry that that happened I kind of feel bad about it. I really love my blog and I want to do A LOT more with it. I'll talk about that in a second though because next I want to restate my goals for 2016 that I wrote. Goals for 2016 1.       Study: I slacked off this first semester with my school work and I think I could have done better. I really want to try this semester and next