-wrote these when i was crazy depressed lol-
,
I'm afraid I'm becoming too distant.
I'm not the only person in
your life, but you're the only one in mine.
You shine like the North Star but
I.
am a black hole that collects every negative feeling,
every frightened burst
of energy, every tear falling, every sad dream It's dark.
where I am and I
can't find you even though you're screaming at me that you're right in front of
me just one step further you can make it but I fall.
I fall anyway,
I fall into
a pit below me and I stay there.
And instead of climbing up the wall I grab a
shovel and dig myself deeper where else is there to go?
I am not strong enough
to force my way up.
I am not wise enough to fabricate a plan of escape.
Your
light grows smaller as I keep digging until suddenly I can not see you anymore.
And you cry for me, but only for a while because life will go on anyway,
A few
million years left before your star decays and I.
I am gone and I plan no
return.
Thank you for believing in me.
,,
Where am I?
Am I in my house?
Am I at my school?
In a car, in a
bus, in my bed crying because no.
I'm not here.
I'm not there.
I'm floating in
a dark cloud of black smoke and I can't see where I'm going.
A tiny light
shines through that smoke and there I am.
But I thought that I was... here...
why am I there too?
Who is controlling you?
I mean me... maybe. I just don't
know anymore.
Nothing is right. Nothing is real,
I don't feel. I'm just
sitting.
In a self driving car, skidding.
Along on the road in the fog not
living.
Just moving.
Uncontrollably.
To places I'm supposed to be.
But I never
quite make it.
Where am I?
I'm not at home. I'm not at school.
I'm not...
I'm
not.
I don't know where I've gone.
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